before and after
Written by beeber on July 30, 2006 – 3:16 pm -We had lunch with our friend Linda and her 27 month old daughter, April, on Sunday. There was a patron at the restaurant reminiscing her 8 year old son being as small as anZel (most parents marvel at how small their children once were after seeing anZel). The patron told me to enjoy my son. Linda whispered to me and said “it’s easy for her to say. Her son is eight. when will we ever get there?” While Linda’s will see April become 8 sooner, I have also come a long way compare 100 odd days ago. I have crossed the threshold…I am a mum-in-training…going thru one boot camp after another.
I am no longer the naive person or mum-to-be who is judgmental and gets annoyed at the sound of a screaming child in a restaurant or the sight of kids who only want to be held thru an entire meal. What REALLY qualified me to judge others when I didn’t have to operate with one hour of sleep and a screaming baby bewild me now.
I know I have crossed the threshold as a “mum” on Friday when I was at the pool. There I was absorbing the tranquil pool until I saw anxious parents filing in with their children. Most lap swimmers dread the kids’ swimming lessons. They are more like squeal lessons. You can hear the scream under the water. I was there to get a break; especially I get to hear babies cry every day now. Then it daunt on me that…soon I will be “one of those” who would have a child in toll to break the placid water. My child might damage your ear drums above and below water at the touch of the blue wave. It was a humbling realization.
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