Quarterly report >> Y3 3q
Written by beeber on October 19, 2008 – 10:11 pm -For the past two weekends, I have been brave enough to take the children out to the park by myself for a couple of hours. I am happy to say that we all have a grant time. It’s hard to believe that I have come this far. It’s truly the first time I am able to enjoy the children fully and appreciate each of them, together and individually. There was no worry of someone falling off a chair and/or poking one’s eye with a silver wear. We enjoyed the warm fall weather and all that’s around us.
Our time together makes me realize how special the children are meant to me. Before having anZel, I never realized how much one can truly love a child and what it would be like to have someone truly depend on you with his/her life. And I certainly had never imagined being able to have the capacity to love another child just the same. When I hold Arden in my arms, my heart swells with love I have never experienced. She is the poster baby that I have never experienced…her porcelain skin, padded back and chubby fingers.
It has been 30 months since I started this journey. There isn’t a day that I am not grateful for the children I am blessed with. They have taught me a great deal about life. Life is certainly more challenging with the children, however, it’s sweeter and richer because of them. There aren’t words to describe the joy I feel when I see anZel bathing in the afternoon sun with a bowl of his favorite red grapes on his chest on the picnic blanket. There seems to be magic at the end of Arden’s index finger when she points. Most of all, I feel like I could give each children an infinite amount of kisses as well as hugs and still will feel like I can give 10 million more.
This Quarterly report has gone into a half-year report. Many milestones have gone undocumented. Part of me feels guilty of letting it all slips away. It’s so true that time goes fast when you have children. They do grow like weed. I look at some of the photos of anZel and I see dAd. I have to keep reminding myself to enjoy each moment with the children as that all things come in due time. There is no hurrying life, is there?
With 30 months behind me, I feel I have reached an important milestone myself. I wouldn’t have made it this far without a loving family, strong mums, amazing women and wonderful friends.
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